What wrong with me??

Day by day gone, still the some thing happen each time. Recently, someone tried to put me in trouble by telling lied to my friends and Sir. Unfortunately, the case was solve within 1hrs after he tell the truth. I was very disappointed about it and put my trust to him.

Sometime it takes me to get over with it but till now I can’t leave it aside. I still think the problem and trying my best to put a smile and tell other I am fine. Everyone was concern about me as the case, which, was bought up to Commanding Officer (CO). I remind clam and relax but it since didn’t held me up to normal person. I behave stupid and forgetful when I hanger thing or other. Lot of problems was driving in my mind. Maybe the problem came on hard on me, or maybe I can’t erase out of my mind. "WHY it should not be like that. Haiz"

Till the days have come by, I just treat my company line, as only 3 medics are present in my hand, WJ, AW and myself. WJ was like my best buddy to me even he going to ORD soon, I tried my best to put him more relax and enjoy his ORD mood. He know I am unhappy a lot of thing that keep in my heart and mind. He also know that I trying to act as normal person but it seen he can read my mind.

Each day, I borrow strength and power from God to allow me to carry on. But I have a strong feeling I will be lying down on the bed and losing my strength away. One of my friends were very concern when he saw me walking side to side as I like going to faint off.

Thank you my wonderful friends who give me your courage and understand the problem I am holding. I try to put in my rest but I don’t think so. I glad having you as my best buddy after all. Never forget our BMT times. Never give up to those who want to carry on. Who know that thing change a lot in miracles way. Who know that life will be bad or normal way. How can I tell myself to stay on and keep myself awake? I guess I giving up myself a hope. Everyday, I felt tired and restless. My friend was right that time, he told me not to give up yourself as there are many Man in the company need me.

Yesterday, I was in NDP and I enjoy myself the whole. I made new friend from other units and the event is going on. So far I got 2 casualties at my post, nothing major about. I saw the uniform group people left early at 8pm. At 10pm, P2 call me up. I was carry thing sorry P2 to reject your call. I met my wonderful family members again for supper at Newton. Nothing much, just has fun. Haiz, that is a short while.

Stressful Event at Field Camp

Last Week, my company was having platoon field camp. It was 3days and 3 nights event. It is all right cause I already been adopt to the system and life in company. Sharing out my story making me to ease my stress

I was the cover medic for all the 3days, while my partner will assistant me when I need help. Each day, I had not enough sleep and got a lot of bite from unknown insert. Haizz..

Day 1 Story:
In the morning everything were fine. But in the afternoon and night was bad. After lunch I received a case of fever and nausea. I gave him an IV as the temperature was reaching out at 38. He was fine but then send to Medical Centre was further treatment. At 10pm, the company was sleeping. I make my round to check all the men were all right. Each station I pass, the guard HALT me and check my identification before allow me to pass. After my round ended, I decide to rest. All the sudden, a man ran quickly and wakes me up. He said that his mate is unwell. I was in shock run ahead as the guard all trying to stop me. It was a head injury case. I alarm the signal to inform the safety vehicle to send off the patient to Hospital. I went with the patient and observe the casualty for abnormal behavior. That was a trauma for me which I did not expect an Emergency Case. Reach at hospital quickly the medical attendant to him. I wait about 3hrs for everything when fine before we left. Reached back to field at 4am.

Day 2 Story:
In the morning, I woke up at 7am to have breakfast. I was so sleepy by then. Not long after my meal. Other cases come in. A Sergeant approach to me and he told he not well, feeling like to vomited and having stomach pain. I was afraid he having gastritis and it a non- emergency case, I gave him warm water and tell him to wait for medical center to open. After him, other private came in and his case was unknown insert bitten on his left hand. So I decided to send them back to medical center later at 9am. In the afternoon, there was other case. One of the men went into the pothole and sprains his feet. His foot was swollen out as big as rock sand. Oh my got to send him to rest at training shelter and wait for the next transport to the camp. From then I start to be more alert and carry on my duty. After this case nothing happen and got 5hrs sleep on the stretcher.

Day 3 Story:
This time I believe not much case will be happen. But in the afternoon, our commanding officer appears and watches our platoon training. I was totally shock and smile out. In the early afternoon, it was raining with Lighting. All the activities were stop and waited for the rain to stop. Not long for it, a platoon runner signaler to safety and medic that they had 1 NO-DUFF cases. Our CO Sir drives quickly to the scene. I try to put my best performance and treat the casualty quickly. His case was having hyperventilation. As the weather turn badly, I had to evacuate him to the nearest shelter and perform my treatment. CO Sir gave me his hand and helps me to evacuate the casualty. I felt abit embarrass. At the shelter, I assess his condition was fine and did give him VI. After 10min, he started to confuse and worry that need to send to medical center. After 15min, his condition turn worse and have to send out. Quickly give him IV and send to medical center. He was stabled and admitted to sickbay. Back to cover and carry on my duty. I started to reflect myself, how came so many case happen each day. And all is under my hand. As the rain lighter, the battle course start. This time OC sir plan to have platoon battle. About 5pm, a man ran into the forest and got himself injury. Every platoon shout of “MEDIC” “MEDIC”. I ran across the smoke and approach to him. He had 2 degrees burn and was less than 1%. It was non-emergency case and decided to bandage and let him rest at the training shelter. At 6pm, we reach at Sharon area, my OC sir, go for hunt for Rambutan. It was fun and enjoy the taste of juicy. Hahaha. Half an hour later, the weather turns bad and is going to rain again. Not again, other case of hyperventilation, we quickly, send the casualty and remain his condition stable. He was been shock by his friend.

All these cases, make my experience enlarge and carry on my professional skill. I felt that is much thing to do and much thing to learn. There is nothing to be stop as the times go by, I will learn the mistake and experience myself into different world.

Leave Day

Finally, manage to get leave for 2days and will be back to camp this Saturday. I have an appointment as Company Medic since on monday. I didn’t feel stress even through the job scope is wide out. I pass down to Platoon Medic to handle the situation.

Today was my 1st day of leave, went to NUH to discuss with my pervious Red Cross teacher, miss chow about National First Aid Competition. Follow by, she bought me around the hospital. I felt different when I was a student nurse before. It since that they are more relaxing side and not too anxiety of their clinical skill. I remember my times; we keep on petting our lecture to complete our skill. Well that is life.

After having fun seeing the student, I went back to ITE East (Simei) to collect my certificate but I was late, the teacher left the officer early. Oh my, but later met Jacq for Dinner. I was surprise that she dare to take Nursing as her career. We went for dinner, and guess what she had forget my Chinese name, how bad was she.

Later went to Airport, to send my friend. Well the fight was at 2am, and I reached at 10:30pm. At the airport, so many people were talking about me lah. Aiya leave it as normal. Hahaha

Worry!!! Still now I worry about my health, I don’t know weather I am recovering. I feel that I getting worse, my skin is turning to redness and swelling again after my hospital admission. I guess I have to observer myself and watch out for any dangerous lump.
Next week other field camp, pray hard nothing go wrong.

Farewell Message

Few days ago, I was in confuse and dilemma weather I should been in HQ or Company line. This battle was keep going on since I enter the Battalion HQ as a HQ Combat Medic. Life was simple as usually, all the sudden new outbreak about death case and shortage of medic in Company. I was reposted back to Company line. Left behind my fellow medic who I had works with long enough and create the bounding of strength during emergency care. I just like a rubbish dump away from other and going to other world. Skill, Knowledge and strength were cast away by the disaster calling.

Farewell message by few of my friends and sadness touch in the heart. In the company, I was reward and welcome back. Given appointment as Company Medic. Thinking back the past in medical center wasn’t the same as in company line. Lot things have to catch up as the troopers have been well trained in combat.

Farewell Message:
To Martin – Thank for your touch given to me as I had left and wish me luck to come back to HQ line. I will be awaiting for the letter of appointment back to HQ. Our skill and knowledge will least long. Wish you all the best ahead and see you soon.

Gilbert: Thank for your kindness support and wellness. Wish you the best, as BCS I/C. Guess is hard on you checking store and medic care to the patient. Not to worry, if I am back, I will help you out even I had other posting.

Chee Yong: Good to know you as you have knowledge in wound management. Great that we have share our skill and making patient wound heal well. Hope we meet again soon.

Farewell my senior medic and fellow medic. Guess we have all the helping hand and strength our line along. I will be waiting to come back as HQ medic and get new appointment again. Thank for you courage to pull me back hoping the officer aggress with it.

Reminder this line:

Your skills are in your hand and heart. Your hand will save a life.
- Nursing Manager of TTSH