Can you find me? 

Last Day in CMC 

Hmm saving a man's life, with IV 

This story will share with you how much pain I have go through and despites the stress and difficult accepting the task, the camaraderie, the empathy and the noble spirit of the Angle Shine through.

Pain and Hurt of myself

Soon I have to leave from my combat team due to other reason. I am very sad mood about my health condition since after my medic course. The test was done twice each month and the results come out positive. I don’t know how to tell my health condition to friends and other because I felt embracement. My mum and dad knew about me and they were just sad. So I decided to write in blog, those who read will know. I having a HTHL as it may cause permanent if I don’t take care of the HTHL. HTHL is a hearing never that may cause temporary or permanent damage. I might have a chance of recovery is just 10% ONLY. The doctor told me a bad news, if this doesn’t seen to be good. It may be DEAF. This hurt me a lot and some of the solider in the company through I trying to fake myself or even some said I through of getting out of the combat team. With this sentence make me angry and feeling sad. They don’t understand how I feel with a HTHL. But I got a few medics and 3 of my good friends understand how I feel and they concern me daily. Well, I have to accept the changer of myself. So those who have read these I hope you all understand it.

10 months in NS Life

Well 10 months, oh my 10 months already in NS life. Haha. Just a week ago, I was having a cup of coffee with friend from Combat Medic at TCC at clake quary. All of us look different and from different camp too. Time already flies in October and guess what today is my birthday. Yeah. Laughter and joy come out from our mouth and cheer to each other. And not forget the question they like to ask me once again “So Alvin Eeeee got girlfriend or not”. Laughter and tease me again. As my response is “NO”. Joke and question asking around. Of course they celebrate my birthday early.

Dream of a girl

Just last night, I dream a girl, which I may or not believe. Haha do you believe it? I dream a girl who is younger than me about 3 – 4 yrs old different. Hmm but I cant see her look well. She has long hair. Hmm I can’t remember. Haha is just a dream.

A great power have is own responsible to itself. As a medic have a great healing hand to other who are wounded and injury. Sometime life can be happening with unaware what going on. Even friends say can wait till tomorrow but I not so sure how true is it? It our responsible to care and help for other not just leave it aside. Who know thing can just disappear and won’t return.

Miracle you cant believe it

This is a miracle, my patient open his eye once again after his operation was done. My friends and myself can’t believe it till we went down to see him in the hospital and was came to my surprise, it was true that his eye open in front of us. I bought my sister to see him on Saturday and she cry out cause she felt the pain as a brother who have gone through the care as a Nurse. This may let her expose what is nursing about and hope she learn something. What Ambrose say was right, what we are leaving there is a 2nd world who is living with us. Spiritual help to heal other, even prayer do how to heal deadly illness. Now I know why spiritual prayer is very important to a patient life. I did enjoy once again with all of the zai family for coffer or rather say is a dinner.

Well, I didn’t believe till Father from Novena Church came down to hospital and give his life prayer to the patient and the prayer was answer by him. I now then believe and prayer do help it. When I will be a nurse clinical, I would allow my patient’s relative pray for their patients. I think now we can relief and wait for the next step for his healing.

Now I think our worry will leave us slowly. But I don’t think so, I guess the disaster in the world got worsen recently. Would this disaster affect Singapore? I don’t know; who know one day will come.

Hmm, now my leave day and student are having exam. Hey all student who are having exam, Best in luck”

Whatever you are facing it, go and challenge them up, don’t make other defeat you up and don’t make other look down on you. Just do what you are now, the challenger is just yourself who you are facing not who you are challenge with. Trust this and you will successful.

Whatever you are now, just pray for HOPE

Hey, yesterday have a great time once again with my nursing friend and my sister. I went out with my sister to Toa Payoh at afternoon. She was late so I walk around at Toa Payoh and guess what I lost my way back to MRT cause there was many exit. Both of us went for lunch at KFC before that we passed by at bus interchange and saw a huge blood donation area. Oh ya I met Shirley “Mdm” haha. Therefore, she looks angry and feels like want to punch me out because I about to call her “Mdm”. Bleh. At evening time, I went to Saka Sushi for dinner with my nursing friend. We were making ourselves foolish in the restaurant by arguing and fighting each other. Later at night, we went for late night movies the show is “Crops Bride”. The show is fair ya, nothing much but my Dajie got scare when the guy turn over and meet the crops bride. Don’t know should I laugh or not. hehehe

Last week there were many things happening during my duty. Keep on thinking what is this happen to me and WHY, why must this should be on my hand. I have no time for my friends, family and my love ones. Thank goodness I have no girlfriend, if not I think we will be now fighting and shouting each other. That Monday and Tuesday, I went to TTSH at 2pm. I met the patient’s relative and family, I never did an interactive with other family who love one in ICU. I console them and my heart feels sadness of the pain and places myself into their shoes. It is difficult to tell how much they go through the pain and how long more to take it. Each time, I saw them cried every time when the doctor releases the condition of the patients. If I can imagine that bed if my love one I would never forgive myself and will stay beside till the his/her awake or dead. I left and return back to my camp for the follow day passion medic duty. I afraid to tell other about him but just wait and see his system to fight each enemy on the battlefield.

Friday evening was my other case sending to hospital. Thank goodness was a dislocation shoulder case other is unknown fever. I send them to NUH A&E but my patients screaming in pain and in ambulance. Aiyo, I can’t do much but to clam his anxiety down. Of course manage to do so till hand over to A&E Staff. At the end, both are all right and send back to camp and book out.

Pervious Saturday week, had a long time didn’t went out to watch movies. The show was “The Myth”, it was a nice show you must go and watch if those don’t like hong kong actor then suggest not to go. After the show, we went for dinner. I think we make a fool of ourselves there, well was someone birthday. I did have a great fun with them even my body is weak and lot of worry. Of course I seldom think to drink some alcoholic drink to ease myself in the way of enjoy but this will not erase my thing, right. Myself and other 2 person bought and a glass only. The rest of the girls were playing around the playground. At 10pm, the girls left and we stay at the playground till about 11pm. I just hope they are happy and thank to my daughter inviting us came along and guess what she planned the celebration well.

Looking at the sky, world and climate are changing, it seen like the show name “The Day after Tomorrow”. Hmm maybe the temperature will be low but not snowing ba.

What ever is now I am standing can’t or never return back what I used to be. I like to be something that I can see other world, I like to be free out and live in the normal way. But can’t so many restrict in camp and all you have to say YES, YES and can’t say NO. I don’t know how to faces out. But I should be now standing off my feet and carry on my work, no one should tell me what to do.