The day will never forget

Recently, one of our medic was down. He was send to TTSH and admitted to NICU (Ward 3A, Bed 14). We received the news yesterday early morning. MO sir and 2 medics rush to TTSH. I was call upon to help up in medical center. Everyone was low moral and praying for our friend. MO sir returns back to camp before lunchtime. He told us that he is in a bad condition and had virus infection the brain. I was shock and guess that is should not be that case.

MO sir suggested us to visit him and we turn up yesterday night. I went there at around 10pm at night with my one friend. I met his mother in the ICU room. I look at him and remind me back the last patient I saw in NUH ICU. I nearly tears again, but I hold very strong of myself, which I don’t want to let the mother know. I console his mother and give him an encouragement to carry on even though I know what will happen next. I left around 11.15pm and meet my other friend who had discharge from NUH.

At that time, I release why MO sir said that he (patient) wouldn’t able to make it. When I saw him, he can’t remember who are we, he looks different. Everything is on Intensive Care instrument, what to do you all think (whoever read this blog), do you think he can make it or not? I simply lost in nowhere of island. Please tell me how? Tomorrow I am going down to TTSH to do my duty at 2pm. Guess I will be lonely person facing other death cases that I did not had a choice. Whoever want to come to visit him or accompany me up you are welcome so.

My precious Philosophy

In my sprite of life are Compassion, Care and Comfort for other and to provide the principles of professional care who are living with illness and wounded person around us. With this compound of the values it need a great support by family member and friends. Nevertheless, fear of it will not stop from me doing it. Giving other a hope and courage is trustful to other who will look appoint you.

The great thing that I haven’t believe it

I have two great wonderful people who have given their support to me and make me live on whatever I am here. Both of them were adopted by me as my daughter and sister. The milestone was left behind till now. When I started to adopt a daughter when I first met her in year 2000. She was very quite person and nice looking girl. But she likes to whisper to her group of friend, who are very close to her life. She had never failed as my daughter who every time cares for me. She felt stress in her studies once or even more and she have to burn midnight oil to get over her study. Every time, I need to nag at her to sleep early or even though she carries on study I will still wait for her and stay awake till she go to bed. But I believe that she can do it. Not only that she also share with me that she wants to be a singer or dancer in her further. I did encourage her to carry on her life of philosophy. Without philosophy life feel meanness, with philosophy or something she like to do, it is better the way and would even help to carry on her career. She told me that no one give her support even her family. But I understand how she feels without a supporter. I believe in the way there is someone will be beside you and giving you courage of support is yourself. Sprite is the answer. And around you are friends and for me is other one who always within you. Never say that you have no hope or no confidant. Just do what ever you wish to be. That is how she became my 1st beloved daughter of my life. Every time I say I getting weaker day by day. She starts to worry for me. That time I lied on the bed and she began to worry day and night. During that period is her test and she had been burning overnight of her study. And I stay with her by messaging till she falls asleep.

Other one was my adopted sister. Not long ago, just a month I just adopted her in August during NDP first aid duty, I was doing my duty as a medic liaison with Red Cross. Every time there is a female casualty. I will look for a female first aider. Everyone was busy in their work, so I can only call name that I able to remember. She was every helpful that day and kin to learn many types injuries that she saw in her eye which is good because it hard to see all kind of cases in your lifetime. Not long she share with me about his family background and I felt sad and sorry for her and decided to adopt her as a brother of her. But that time I was in hospitalization, she began to get worry at that time and keep on message me with her care and concern of her brother lying on the bed with pain. She came and visits twice before. And the third visit was my house, she deliver her cooking food to my house. Her cooking was nice and healthy. But she is a quite person who cries at home with no one know. Feeling lonely and no one accompany her. Her interest was nursing. It was come to my surprise that she want to be a nurse. At first I want to courage her but giving her test how much she willing to be a nurse but she did it. She is willing to be a nurse one day who like to care for other but she need to get more expositive. Give her my courage even her dad want her to be police. But with her strong will, she will do it.

Life & Love

As now you had read it. Each time I have been using strength from heaven to keep me awake and tired was sweep by the wind. Having a two great person with me keep me warm and carry on whatever I am doing. Not other them I have a family member and other who are close to me. But love, is not yet discover out from the demission of me. Perhaps, I don’t have ones. It keeps me away from it. Maybe one day or soon after so nowhere can find a person who I like or person who like me. Great love in your heart, great power in your mind, great sprite is your soul. What ever is great is within you.

With your kindness soul, will be always within you.

Never forget other who is beside you is your Sprite.

-Sister Alice-